I just want to be fucking happy

been ages since I’ve cried myself to sleep lol

only back cause have no release, no one to talk to and in a fucking shit place again

lol guess who’s back

someone please help me like this is my cry for help

I’m drowning

i am so scared but I don’t know what to do with myself

I feel like I could just slip away and no one would notice and care and I wouldn’t have to put up with my mind anymore and trying to please everyone and trying to be this brave and strong person that I’m not like I just want to be free I hate living with this. It’s like people who hate living with their disability or other mental health issues they just want to be gone cause they hate it and don’t want to deal with it anymore and that’s what I want. I don’t want to deal with this shit anymore and go through this daily battle I just want to be gone and to stop being trapped

like I hate that mental illness just crept up on me like I used to be so happy and confident and now I’m not and I do everything wrong and upset everyone and I hate it

I feel so trapped and enslaved in my own mind